Sometimes when you add something new to life, you have to take something away. Sometimes you think you can add something new and still keep everything you had. But later you realize you have to take something away.
It shouldn't be that way. You should be able to add something, without losing the things you had. But when you do, you have to choose what to loose. You work hard to make sure that the things you loose understand. You work hard to keep them.
But if you have to loose something, you loose it. And then it doesn't matter any more.
I've not given up yet, I think I can keep the old and the new. I just hope the old realizes, someday, what I did and why I did it.